Thought / Pensée
He had never thought about it before.
But now that the concept had entered his mind, he felt more and more that it was logical.
Everything was falling into place! It was the link he had been missing to understand all of his wife's actions in the past year.
Yes she had to be having an affair. There was no other explanation. And he felt like a fool for not having imagined it before.
How could he have been so trusting, so naive, so stupid!
He was pacing up and down like a caged lion. From the window to the bedside locker to the cupboard to the chest of drawer, and back to the window. What was he going to do? He had no idea.
He didn't feel like talking to anyone about it. He felt too stupid for not having noticed before. He didn't feel like looking for proof either. He was too sure of his belief to question it, should he find nothing. So no need for wasting time looking for text messages, emails, letters, credit card receipts or what not. He knew. That was enough.
Would he confront her? Would he just leave the house, take his stuff and move into a hotel, letting her deal with the dog, the mortgage and the taxes? If he did that, would he leave a note explaining his choice, or would he just leave it up to her to understand or not?
He needed to make a decision. Now. So he decided to take a long hot shower, and go for a walk near the river. He knew it would clear his head as much as was possible right then. There would be time to see then.
Une pensée traversa son esprit. Puis une autre. Aucun rapport. Il se demanda pendant un instant ce que ça ferait de noter toutes ses pensées bout à bout. Quelquechose du genre tiens ce chien est bizarre on dirait qu'il a une patte qui manque je me demande si j'ai bien fermé la fenêtre de la cuisine et au fait qu'est-ce que cet imbécile de Winsley m'a dit l'autre jour je me souviens même plus c'était juste ridiculement idiot comme lui d'ailleurs qu'est-ce que je l'aime pas c'est bizarre que ma femme l'apprécie autant MERDE et s'il avait une affaire avec elle...... NON PAS POSSIBLE faut que je me calme je vais marcher plus vite tiens ouuuh jolie fille je me demande si elle est libre arrête Robert faut que tu repenses à la possibilité de ta femme au pieu avec Winsley ça te calmera je l'aime au fait ma femme? ........... Merde. Bon je vais penser à autre chose peut-être plutôt à ma nouvelle collègue Corinne je sais pas trop quoi penser d'elle un peu masculine très dynamique elle est peut-être lesbienne non quand même pas dans ce milieu trop de filles à mecs et si justement elle était différente bon ça m'aide pas à me sentir mieux tout ça je crois que je vais rentrer nourrir le chien
Oui processus étrange que celui des pensées. Sur ce, il se versa un grand verre de whisky qu'il but d'un trait.